dysfunctional

the past few years of hurt and experiences have engraved so much change and ugliness into me. i no longer recognise who i am or who i aspire to be. i had wanted such a different life i don't know how to live this one. i look at myself and wonder who could ever find this beautiful. i keep wanting more more more. i wish i could erase all these traces of hurt and pain and trauma. how do i rid me of myself?