I thought you knew me

I thought you'd love me

the day you saw me in velvet red lipstick,
pearled neckline

i was hoping the seams would close up

choking me,
frilly skirt in your favourite colour,

and eyes that resembled your mother's.
maybe i thought

you might see through the disaster

behind this smile,
the chaos hidden in the purse of my lips,

and figured i was worth saving.