Sunday, May 1, 2016

elude

My constant fear in life is that I'll end unhappy.
And I'm not talking about right now, because that is what I am.
I'm talking about the future I had so carefully thought out for myself.
What if it doesn't turn out the way I imagine it?

You keep looking forward to the future
Hoping for better days to come along
But what if it never does?
What if this is life and it'll always be like this?

What if the problem isn't with your situation or condition?
What if the problem lays within yourself,
And nothing can fix it unless you fix yourself.
You'll be forced to face the feelings you've been dreading to confront.

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Another fear of mine is that I'll end up living a life filled with uncontentment.
Well yes, I have it far better than a lot others but
I'm just not satisfied. There's something missing.
What if what's missing will never be found?